~Kuro-dono

The last 36 hours was nothing but a strain on my mind. Good moments turning to bad moments, turning to scary moment, turning to proud moments, turning to happy moments, turning to loving moments. I guess i shouldnt say it that way, because that is not exactly the order it went in, or at least there were other moments in between.

36 hours ago, I woke up at 4:30am EST, as I do every morning for some not so unknown reason. I did my normal routine in preperation for my day, a trip into the city to see someone special. After coffee, a 45 minute shower, a quick email check, and making sure my Ipod was set to my favorite play list, I was out the door.

I won't bore you with my entire day, just the above mentioned high lights; A peaceful bus ride to Jamaica station (Good)
Falling down cement stairs after someone rushed past me (Bad)
Coughing up blood after the above fall (Scary)
Stopping a guy from stealing a womans purse on the subway to the Bronx (Proud)
Seeing my love's smile after a week (Happy)
Sharing one of the best kisses we have ever had (Loving)

That last moment took all the weight off my shoulders, and I felt refreshed and ready for anything.

Then of course, upon arriving home, my mother attempted to ruin my happy mood, as she always does. Her words rattled around in my mind since they left her lips.

But, with only a few words, my resolve was returned to me. "I love you baby, things are going to be ok." That is all it took.

So I will just simply say, at least for the moment, I am at peace with the world around me.

~Kuro Xue Enzeru