1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must put 8 random facts about themselves.
3. Tagged ones should write a journal about these facts.
4. At the end of the post tag 8 more deviants
5. Go to their page telling them they're tagged.
6. No tagging back ( For Obvious Reasons )

1- I've grown to like Japanese music more than American music

2- I prefer ramen to a thanksgiving dinner

3- I am a video game freek

4- My Ipod is never more than 3 feet from me

5- I truly hate when people say ridiculous things with an attitude reserved for those that make sense, but there words don't even make a comprehensible sentence

6- Anime and manga are gifts from god

7- One week, i lived on nothing but red bull and ramen noodles

8- I think far too much

After some much needed words of encouragement, I feel so much better. I have decided not to quit writing, at least not yet, and I even wrote a new poem. But, this one was just for one person in particular, one of the people who helped me out of the slump i was in, so you wont find it posted on my page, it is only on her journal.

Just wanted to update those who may have had concern, I am feeling better. I am even laughing at myself for letting myself get so down. Hopefully, I will have a new poem to post for those who are interested in reading. But once again (and I promise, this is the last one lol) I say thank you for the few people who cared enough to say a few words to try and cheer me up.

I am thinking that I am going to quit writing. I've been writing poetry since I was 7, but I think it is time to give it a rest.

No one seems to care that I write, not even the muse for the words. Besides one or two people on DA, no one ever gives me any kind of opinion on my work, and it is frustrating not to know if my work is any good. So I think my most recent will be my last, at least for a good while.

I see no point to continue.

This morning was rather interesting, allowing me a laugh as I left for work. I feel the laugh is worth sharing.

I was simply standing in the kitchen, ironing my shirt for work. This was just a normal day, meaning of course I was already running late. Lol.

As I finally finish ironing my shirt, my sister and mother walk into the kitchen. I glance down and say with a smile “good morning muchkin” and I am greeted with a happy “morning *Kuro*” Then with much less enthusiasm in my voice I simply say “Hello mother”.

Answered by nothing but a “mmhmm”.

As I button my shirt, my sister says “So, will I get to see my sister this weekend?” Mind you my sister is eight, this is important to remember, or else you won’t find the following funny.

My mother looks at her and says, “Of course not, *Amayakasarete Sodatta* is not coming all the way up here, she has to go to school. What would make you even ask that?”

My sister gave my mother the evilest look her little face could muster and said “Not her, I was talking to *Kuro*”. She turned back to me, “Will I get to see *Junsui* this weekend?”

*Junsui* Is my fiancé’s name, whom my mother can not stand simply because she makes me happy.

It took all my strength to hold in my laughter as I spoke. “I hope so imouto (meaning little sister), she is planning on making a trip out here this Sunday, all we can do wait and see.” I flashed a grin at my mother, kissed my sister on the head, and left out the door, on my way to work, as I walked I could hear my mother mumbling profanities under her breath, furious at the fact that her fiancés daughter is less a sister to my sister than my fiancé.

I traveled to work with the greatest smile and still am wearing it now. I found this massively funny, and figured I would share the story.



-Note, all names have been changed to the Japanese names I have given to each person which are meaningful in representation to each person. Each meaning is as such:

Me=Kuro: Black or dark
My fiancé=Junsui: Pure
My Step sister= Amayakasarete Sodatta: Spoiled Child

I just don't know what is wrong... Has anyone gotten one of those feelings like something is clearly out of place, or something bad is going to happen? That is the feeling I have been having for the past 48 hours. Like an omenous cloud is sitting above my head.

I don't know if it has something to do with family, my love life, my friends, or just someone close by proximity alone, but I just feel like something is going to happen that is really going to hurt.

If it is one thing, the one thing I fear the most, then I know my next course of action at least. I made a promise to myself and to the universe around me, and it shall be kept. I just really don't want a reason to go down that road.

Its not that I want to go there, I just will no longer care where I end up anymore. My reasons will be shattered, and I will become a frail leaf, easily blown in either direction.

I don't know, maybe I am just suffering from paranoia. Maybe the planets are aligned in a certain way that makes Capricorns feel this way, I don't know anymore. I guess all I can do is wait...

Waiting painfully impatiently,
~Kuro Xue Enzeru