For the past few weeks, something has been weighing heavily on my mind. Well, that question has finally been answered. I have no need to share the question, or my revelation I gained from the thoughts concerning it. All I will say is, the period of biding my time in deep contemplation is over. I know what must be done. I am not even close to sorry for what I must do. I am resolved in the actions that are necessary in the time to come. If I seem different to those around me..good. That is the intention. Believe me, the change is for the better.

Well, in a little while, it will be officially over. The anniversary of my birth will have past. And I will admit that I am glad to be rid of it. In 1 24 hour period, it feels as if what was left of my heart fractured further, dried completely, and crumbled to powder. As I wave goodbye to the day, I follow by waving goodbye to the dust blowing in the wind. Once again, to them both, I say good riddince.

Well, anyone who read my last journal entry knows that I am at my mothers Home for the holiday season. Because of how depressing these walls are to me, I have no inspiration. But, I hate to go into the new year without some kind of post. So I have posted a new poem. It is called "Allow me to introduce myself". You may wonder how I posted something new with no Inspiration. Well, in my depression, I went looking through old notebooks from high school. I wrote this poem for a sonnet contest, and won first prize. Mind you this is from 9th grade, meaning I was 14, 5, nearly 6, years ago. So it is not my best, but in any case, it is up. Enjoy if you will.

~Kuro

My Christmas/new year vacation from school is going as expected. I am alone, depressed, and uninspired to even write or draw anything new. I sit and write this depressing update from the computer in my local library simply for something to do. I am at a loss for exactly what to do with my self until January 10.

To add to my misery, the worse day of the year (for me at least) is rapidly approaching. The anniversary of my birth is only 10 days away, and I am dreading it, as I have every day since the first one I can remember. This day will be spent in the confines of my room, in attempts not to become even more saddened by the day by running into, or hearing something to worsen my mood.

However, I will not let this journal be completely depressing. I say happy new year to all who may read this. May the coming year bring you more joy than this past one has brought me, more by volumes. Speak to you all, hopefully on a happier note, sometime soon.

~Kuro

Got this from lilmslycan, thought it looked like a fun. Trying to feel better after recent misfortune. If you want to try, comment, I give you a letter, then post 10 things starting with that letter.

My Letter: K

1. Kisses; perfect when with the right person

2. Kira; Light Yagami, He should have won at the end of Death Note

3. Kuro; My name LOL

4. Keep you safe; a song i wrote back in high school

5. Kim; name of the friend who just called me

6. King of Contradiction; song I am listening to

7. Keva; My mothers Name

8. Kingdom Hearts II; my favorite game

9. Kingdom Hearts; my second favorite game lol

10. Kazuhiko Toyama; My favorite musical composer